It's been a while!

It's probably been about 4 years since I've written in a blog, which is interesting as I kept several blogs for the 4 years prior to that...  My oldest child is almost 5 and my 2 youngest are a week away from been 2, yes they're twins.

Today I watched a video on Facebook narrated by Alan Watts and it basically says "how would you really enjoy spending your life",  ask yourself the question "What do I desire?" and that if you don't figure this out you'll spend your life doing things you don't like doing and end up bringing your children up to do the same...   I know that's not what I want, I don't want to be the one setting that example for them...  

I'm very lucky in that my husband really enjoys his job, so is setting a great example, he's one of those people who has a passion for what he does and he's been doing it for close to 20years, always bettering himself, always studying.  It's hard to explain to a person who knows what they want and where they're going, so to speak, that you feel like you're just floating.  That while you're doing something you enjoy it, then you stop enjoying it and it's time to move onto the next thing but you don't necessarily know what the next thing is, hence 'floating'.

I never written this down in black and white, maybe it's why I stopped writing, but I don't really enjoy been a stay at home mum.  I love my children and it's a choice I've made, to stay home with them, as I want the best start possible for them. Honestly though, it's not my calling in life and I often refer to my life as "groundhog day" different day but same old same old.  I know it shows and it's not the example I want to set for my children.

Maybe this is my wake up call to sort myself out...